Jul 21, 2008 A year from now

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?


Acrossfiveaprils

Jul 14, 2008 .............

Have you ever fallen for someone but they don't even know you're there?

Am I in love? I can't sleep, I can't dreams, and I can't even close my eyes. Its keep on bothering me. Whether myself are going insane or it is something real? Oh God help me! I don't know what this is but it's killing me. It seems that I'm desperate for love. Don't blame me, I don't ask for it. Damn it!

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new


Damien Rice-The Blowers Daughter

Jul 13, 2008 Isetmyfriendonfire

It's been 3 days I slept over at Hap's. Actually, I'm not sure why I'm here though. Yesterday we went to his grandma's and had our dinner there. His family is kinda cool especially his grandma. She said "whatever it is Anuar Zain is the best". Cool right? :) Before that Me and Hap are looking for pet shops but instead of pet shops we find animal clinic. *sigh What a bad day for us.

Yesterday at Bukit Jalil were having a cheer comp eh? But I thought Ghazi said, Lily have netball at Bukit Jalil as well. Confused aku! oh oh Hap! I am craving for Burger dadah weyh! Bawak aku gi sana dowh! Haha. I just wanna taste how is it feel eating burger dadah. haha

Today it's her birthday and I didn't get her anything. I'm run out of money lately, I've spent a lot on food compared to anything. Sigh* I was thinking to make something special but it takes time. So forgive me, I'll make it up to you.
You're happy aren't you? Then I'm happy for you :) You're 19 now, you know what is right and what is wrong. 19 tu dh kire tua gak tau! haha you take care dear. Adios!

Jul 12, 2008 you know who you are


Someone is turning 19th tmr! You're getting older and you must be wiser hehe ;) Well, you know what you want in your life. You've got nothing to lose in fact you already got everything.

Things may not be the same but we both know what we want. I'm wishing you many happy returns of the day and I’ll pray for you love, health, wisdom and wealth (should I mentioned haha) will follow through. I'm glad that I met you :) have a blast friend. Love*





yours truly,

Jul 5, 2008 Handcock


I'm not feeling well today. Having flu and head ache, probably infected by Hadziq. Hehe it's ok I still can do my work and go online. Sorry Wan can’t make it to join you guys for the photo shoot session. Ghazi and Lily are watching movie today. Ghazi asked me to join them and I said yes. Haha sorry dowh kacau korang dating! It's been so long I didn't go watch movie so this is the time. And yeah Ayu don’t forget this thursday you have a date with me. Ahaks! *gedik Handcock! Here I COME!! can’t wait can’t wait! yada yada!

Work! work! work! pffffffffftttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! (*&&^#%!@&$6 OH MI DIOS!! In english it says OH MY GOD! hehe I have a lots of work to be done. Most of the submission is next week. Gosh I’m so dead. Let me list down for you guys.

  1. Design Process - Bouncing ball (60 drawings)
  2. Sketch Attack - 2 portraits drawings
  3. Comp Environment- Stupid website
  4. Comp Modeling - 3D handphone
By hook or by crook, tonight I must start to do at least 10-20 drawings for bouncing ball. Or maybe 3-4 links for the stupid website otherwise I will repeat next sem. Mampos weyh! K k i gtg! Ghazi is picking me up Adios! Buenas Tardes!


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